moon phases � |
Check this out. Rainman is creating a self-help, creative visualization website. Is that funny, or what? This is classic america. Some dickhead who can't run his own life tells others how to run theirs. Unfuckingbelievable.
As far as I go, I am still in the funk zone. I haven't been this depressed since, like, fifteen or something. I went off on rainman on the phone this morning. He is clueless about the financial status of this household and there are some stress points in that area. He has the nerve to tell me I don't tell him what is going on. Why would I, when for the past several years he hasn't remembered a word I have said to him.
It used to be, that when I got depressed I was very creative and insightful. Now it is just an ugly funk. Like a grey room without any doors, windows or corners. Very frustrating.
I painted a little star shaped basket today just to do something mindlessly creative. Art therapy ala the asylum.
Asylum. Now there is an interesting word. In the negative it is a place where the unmanagable and unwanted are placed so they don't inconvienence or embarrass the general public. In the positive, asylum is a safe haven or refuge from persecution and harrassment.
So what of the ticking lunes taking over the asylum...??
screaming, last night,
in a dream.
couldn't get clean
tear away your cold skin.
spinning in the dark
stars streaking past where
another life
together we have been
hunters spring forth
searching for venegence and
trophies
chimes ring in the night
cold howling from the north
huddling in the dark
against hopes last breath
icy steel cutting flesh
a warm river flows to death.
written at 8:28 p.m.
2001-11-26
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